this is me

it has to end to begin

Sat, 19 Jan 2008 00:24:46 GMT

I wish I could capture you
to calm you and make you my own
your too wild; you make my head spin
then again thats makes you
how could i ever break you.

I am content this much is true, but happiness is a different story.
optimum happiness is a fantasy of mine. I taste it when I'm with these very few people and when they're gone, it seems unatainable and brings this feeling of undescribable emptiness. The disphoria of life, if you will. I want to be your other half. I want to be the only person to know you better than yourself. I've never felt that before. Please don't fade. You are my star.

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 16:59:15 GMT

i still love my fort myers friends even though they dont have time for me anymore =/
going there in about 4 hours....
see ya tonight care! =D

it has been too long.

Mon, 14 May 2007 19:57:52 GMT

i am very unsure of why i even have one of these anymore.
but i figured i will write whats on my mind because i dont think anyone i tell really listens so here we go.

i am very happy to hear that school is comming to a close because i am sick of everyday people i hardly even know being rude and unkind to me for no reason. i think i am a very kind person so why dont i ever reap what i sow? && i am taking some AP test thursday which really frustrates me because i want to get college credit but i have putoff actually learning too long. and im about hopeless at this point. I could blame it on my teacher or the fact that my clas sis right after gym but those would be elementary considering im now 17 i could just pick up my history book and read it myself but i guess im just too lazy. tragic.

another point. i am currently into 4 guys. wow. one isnt going to last past next week. another is immature . one is perfect but 32948798 miles away and another is quite promising but i am have no energy to committ to starting a relationship. =/ hopeless.

also i am homesick ! i've never missed the old time as much as now. and whats worse is i dont think i wil leven be able to come back until the 7th of JUNE!? kill myself. and what i hate most is im losing touch with my girls.

but i have to finish my homework and head off to the gym i guess...
bye

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 00:27:06 GMT

I made this to keep in special contact with my 239 girls and close friends i will not accept anyone besides these elite few . dont take a rejection personal thanks bye <3