it has to end to begin [Friday January 18th At 7:19PM] I wish I could capture you to calm you and make you my own your too wild; you make my head spin then again thats makes you how could i ever break you. I am content this much is true, but happiness is a different story. optimum happiness is a fantasy of mine. I taste it when I'm with these very few people and when they're gone, it seems unatainable and brings this feeling of undescribable emptiness. The disphoria of life, if you will. I want to be your other half. I want to be the only person to know you better than yourself. I've never felt that before. Please don't fade. You are my star. so i'll be sure to return 0 favors.

[Thursday July 5th At 11:58AM] i still love my fort myers friends even though they dont have time for me anymore =/ going there in about 4 hours.... see ya tonight care! =D so i'll be sure to return 0 favors.

it has been too long. [Monday May 14th At 3:50PM] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | guernica- Br& new ] i am very unsure of why i even have one of these anymore. but i figured i will write whats on my mind because i dont think anyone i tell really listens so here we go. i am very happy to hear that school is comming to a close because i am sick of everyday people i hardly even know being rude and unkind to me for no reason. i think i am a very kind person so why dont i ever reap what i sow? && i am taking some AP test thursday which really frustrates me because i want to get college credit but i have putoff actually learning too long. and im about hopeless at this point. I could blame it on my teacher or the fact that my clas sis right after gym but those would be elementary considering im now 17 i could just pick up my history book and read it myself but i guess im just too lazy. tragic. another point. i am currently into 4 guys. wow. one isnt going to last past next week. another is immature . one is perfect but 32948798 miles away and another is quite promising but i am have no energy to committ to starting a relationship. =/ hopeless. also i am homesick ! i've never missed the old time as much as now. and whats worse is i dont think i wil leven be able to come back until the 7th of JUNE!? kill myself. and what i hate most is im losing touch with my girls. but i have to finish my homework and head off to the gym i guess... bye What you've accomplished against me was sickening// so i'll be sure to return 1 favors.

[Thursday December 1st At 7:21PM] [ mood | content ] [ music | hellogoodbye-all time lows ]   I made this to keep in special contact with my 239 girls and close friends i will not accept anyone besides these elite few . dont take a rejection personal thanks bye <3 What you've accomplished against me was sickening// so i'll be sure to return 2 favors.

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